No 1

That nite I was listening to songs accompanied by Sneezies. If you do not know what is “Sneezies”, it’s a game in smart phone where we need to pop up them and let them spread the virus and let them all freed from the bubble.
While I listened to the music and play with the sneezies, my mind brought me back to the time where I’m still single. I used to spend a lot of time doing this. Lost in the song and the game. I enjoy it so much. Because I know that it’s a time for me to get focus to listen to Him.

He talked to me many times though this moment. Because that’s the most relax time that I have. I simply love this moment.

It was when I still single. So how about now? That’s the question that He asked me that nite. Am I too busy to have this moment?

I have to admit, since I attach I will spend most of the time chatting, talking with my pal, or even planning in my head. Plan on what things that we can do together, find a chance to share all my thought my feeling, my day. And it brings me to a place where I forgotten about my time with Him.

Happen that the song that I listen to is a song goes like this

Apa yang dapat memisahkanku

Dari kasihMu Tuhan.. Sahabatku

Kelaparankah.. ketelanjangankah

Tak satupun..Tak satupun..

Apa yang dapat memisahkanku

Dari kasihMu Tuhan... Sahabatku

Aniayahkah... Penderitaankah...

Tak satupun..Tak satupun..

Tiada satupun s'perti Kau Yesus

Kau sahabat yang sejati

Dalam bahaya Kau menggendongku

Engkau Yesus sahabatku

Apa yang dapat memisahkanku

Dari kasihMu Tuhan... Sahabatku

Sakit penyakit... Pencobaankah...

Tak satupun..Tak satupun..

Tiada satupun s'perti Kau Yesus

Kau sahabat yang sejati

Dalam bahaya Kau menggendongku

Engkau Yesus sahabatku

Well, I tried to digest this lyric. And I agree there is nothing that can separate us from His love. But I do withdraw myself from Him because of my substitute.

When I am single I can fell satisfy with Him alone. Now, I replace it with other. And finally I open up my heart to receive his rebuke that I put Him as a subsidiary. Its only when I feel that I need Him, when I do not have anyone else I will come to Him. But when I have someone else, I put Him aside.

Sad but true.

I am still in the middle of tune back my priority, my activity. But for this I made the decision that I need to return back to Him and learn to put Him as my No.1 in my life.

How?? Yup.. I still do not know how, but what I know right now that I need to really have a good talk with Him.

Love letter

I missed to received email from him. I found that I enjoy to get the greet through email when I wake up, I check my email and I found his email. At first I wanted to request him to send me email every morning, with all the things in his mind. but suddently My first person in life rebuked me and asked do u have the same desire to read my email to u every morning? do u long to listen to the word that i want to tell u?

With His help, I searched my heart and answer him that I dont think I have the same desire. Well i always declare that I am a word base people. where I enjoy to read card, bookmark with word for me. BTW, I do keep all the Christmast card, bday card, postcard, letter that people gave me even its from dont know year.
back to my conversation with him, I asked him to give me the same desire to read all His love letter to me. and help me to catch His heart. I want to put Him first in my life. He is the one since beginning, and I found He is inreplacable. 

Yup now im learning to put Him first in my life.

Love

Month of Feb is a month of Love. People will buy flower for their love one, will spend more time and money for their relationship. And I do not want to be left behind even though Im single but I want to listen and learn more about what is love all about. I decided to sign up for a devotional title "What is LOVE?".

Found this in bible apps called YouVersion. It is a simple yet powerful material to go bak to basic on LOVE itself. I finished the devotion this morning (20 Feb 2012).

Yes it is 20  16 (thanks to mel who corrected me) days devotional material. Its ended with a very familiar verse to all of us.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 NIV

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

The question to ponder to close this devotion is in which Love definition that i lack off?

At first and my immediate answer is love is not self seeking. It hits myself and my pride. Because most of the time, when we say love it will lead us into how we feel, what we demand from others. And it is to satisfy our emotion only. We want to be satisfied from the love itself.

Im tring to understand on loving God with not self seeking. Dont expect God to be our slave instead of our master by asking all our request and want it to be happen on the next day. I should learn to Love Him with no self seeking.

When i wrote this, 1 question jump up into my mind. Is this the way that we should love others also? Does it mean unconditonal love? I asked Him, do you mean that if i get hurt from someone that I love or I treasure then I need to apply this thing? Well some of us might know the answer already. It is YES!

Shoot! I really do not know if I can love like this.

Always trust???!!!! You mean it??
I mean how if I tried to trust them but they hurt me again??? should i trust them again???? I really have no confidence. But yeahh I know my confidence is in you.
Knowing that I might not go through it You give me hope, You give me a new strength and of course You give people surround me. 

By the time it happen, i believe that you will ready with your safety net to catch me and embrace me with your love.

His Favor

When I look back on my life journey, especially on last month when I tried to evaluate myself for new year resolution, I recalled back on how much blessing that I received.

There was a moment where I stole His glory. I found myself found a favour on people and I told myself I have the capability to win people heart.
Then I asked myself back, do I really have the capability to do that? if I have the capability but He is not with me, I dont think I can go through it. But if even I have no idea, no power, no strength to do something, by His grace I can go through it.
So I told myself it means not because I can, but because His favor is with me.

Last sunday, God reminded me again that it is by His favor. I went to Bethany Church singapore and Ps. Johan shared about Esther who win God's favor.
If I meditate on Esther book, it is true that Esther is beautiful but there are many beautiful girls compete with her to be the queen.  But when the king saw her, she had his favor upon her. Is it because of her ability to make her received the favor from the king? I dont think so. I believe that God's favor upon Esther, so whoever saw her found favor to her.
In another occasion was when the Jews were in danger. They are about to be wipe off by the order of the king's second man. King had approved the request to kill all Jews. And then Esther had compassion and burden over her people. So she fasted and prayed before meeting the king. I believe during fast and pray, she gained wisdom from God to be able to talk to the king. She found all the proof why king must respect the jews instead of killing them. And as the result we know that Esther once again found favor in king's eye. It is not by her might that she was able to save her people, but because of the divine authority from above.

Well, there is nothing that I can boast when I found favor in human eyes because I know that He gives favor on me first so people found favor in me.
But one thing that I can boast is to have a Father, God, Lord, Master like you. Who has everlasting love for me.

With His favor we will walk our journey till our destination

Greedy

Back in indonesia, I managed to finish 2 drama. "the concerto" and "miss ripley".

While i watched miss ripley, i really hate the main actress. I found her so greedy, i feel so irritated. My question: why they protagonist to be the main. This will be the first drama where people feel irritated with the player. I judge her action. And it make me have no mood to continue to watch the drama.

I stopped to watch the drama for a few days. Then i tried to analyze why i hate her. And if I try to be in her shoes, I might do the same as well. Then I decided to continue the drama. As I dwell into the emotion with the drama, I understand her feeling and situation. Especially in the end of the series, she found a good boyfriend but end up they cant be together.

I can see myself in her while she become greedy over her life. She wants to get the best for her but eventually she missed the best due to her greediness. 

Many times in life Pride and greed will lead us to miss the best for us. 

I also faced the same problem, right now I know that I am too prideful to admit my mistake, and too greedy also to say that what I have right now is not enough. I might miss the best but the problem is I am still have my prideful to admit and to torn down myself. 

can I just have a little bit of my pride???? Oh gosh........ will I really miss the best for me? 

BEST

Last week I attended my friend wedding with my friends back in KL. It was a great reunion though we dont have much time to share.

We decided to join the holy matrimony. I find it a bit different from the holy matrimony which I attended in my church. But I can say that I really enjoy the message that the pastor shared.

He reminded us to learn to be the BEST partner for our spouse. Many times when we look for a partner we want to get the best but we forget to be the best. It really brings me to a basic foundation of relationship. And yet we might get the best partner but we dont have the best marriage.

Well the simple yet powerful message which he shared to have the best marriage

B = Blessing

in our married life sometime we expect our spouse to bless us. We wait for them to bless us. But if we really want to have the BEST marriage we need to be the blessing for our spouse.

E = Edify (Encourage)

In marriage life, we need to edify one another to encourage one another. because when we did this we know that we learn to see the positive side of our spouse. when our spouse is in down moment, we will be there for them. Bring the best out of your spouse.

S = Sharing
In marriage life, learn to be open towards one another. share your life.

There was a recession during that time and Nathaniel Hawthorne was being retrench. When he was on the way back home he struggled whether want to tell his wife about his retrenchment. He scared that his wife might get angry to him and become frustration. But He remember that he need to open to his wife. So he decided to tell his wife.
And to his surprise, his wife was not getting angry and his wife suggest him to write a book, knowing that her husband can write well. Nathaniel reluctant to do it due to the living cost, who will cover it. His wife assure him that she has enough saving. From the monthly allowance which he gave to her, she managed to save and to cover them for 1 year.
So Nathaniel started to write a book and the book which he wrote call "Scarlet Letter" which later become booming and even go to Hollywood.
It started with his decision to open to his wife and his wife to edify and bless him, they succeed.

T = Touch

Touch your spouse's heart.
When you have touched your spouse heart you will really enjoy the relationship. it will bring again to the basic 3 above be a Blessing, Edify and Share your life then you will touch his/her heart.

Know what is the need of your spouse.

There is a story about a mother and also a wife. everyday in her activity is to take care of house and also the husband and sons. One day she felt sick but without failed she still doing her best to do her routine. She wants to be the blessing for her family. Her husband knows it so he said to his wife that he will bring their two sons to shopping centre for 2 hours. Where in this 2 hours the wife can take some sleep, a peaceful sleep. Well in that moment, is not gold or diamond that she needs, she needed time to take a good rest and her husband understand it.


In the end of his message he emphasizes that everything some from above. When a couple can meet and know each other its really God's plan. Let God stir man heart to find his half.

In the beginning of bible God created man will all the animals in the air, water and land. God's desire not to let the man to be alone, so he made a helper which suitable for adam.

Genesis 2:18-24
New International Version (NIV)

18 The LORD God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.”
19 Now the LORD God had formed out of the ground all the wild animals and all the birds in the sky. He brought them to the man to see what he would name them; and whatever the man called each living creature, that was its name. 20 So the man gave names to all the livestock, the birds in the sky and all the wild animals
But for Adam[a] no suitable helper was found. 21 So the LORD God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man’s ribs[b] and then closed up the place with flesh. 22 Then the LORD God made a woman from the rib[c] he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man.
23 The man said,
“This is now bone of my bones
and flesh of my flesh;
she shall be called ‘woman,’
for she was taken out of man.”
24 That is why a man leaves his father and mother and is united to his wife, and they become one flesh.

When God brought Eve to Adam, Adam knows deep inside his heart that this is the one. 

In ESV version :

23 Then the man said,
“This at last is bone of my bones
and flesh of my flesh;
she shall be called Woman,
because she was taken out of Man.”[e]

At last, he found the one that suitable for him. So for us who are still single, do believe that we will compatible towards one another. The woman will be a great helper to the man. As what eve did, she become a great helper for adam to rule over the earth. Everything will be beautiful in His timing

For the guys, do find your half ! Have a conviction that she is the one and in the end you will say at last I found her. :p 

Worry Free

Since last week of Dec, I wanted to write a post about worry. The message about worry is very strong in my mind. I have a lot of worry in my mind.

- worry of my parent health, business, who will accompany them
- worry of my career whether am I going to have a new job with a better environment
- worry of my future, who is my partner, will I be the only one left without a partner
- worry of my decision over certain thing, will I regret my decision
and many more.

If we want to list down all the worries that I have, I think it will take to pages of paper.

But after I think back all my worries, i have no conclusion on how to solve all the worries. it just add up my worries even worse. then a simple verse came to my mind

Mat 6:27-30

27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?

Well, its true that I cant give any solution by worrying. And while I learn about worry, I saw a lot of people surround me who live with full of worry. They may have all material with them but they have no peace in, they cant enjoy the life that their Creator gave.

I am not saying that in life we can ignore all the things and problem that we have in our life. Worry and ignorance its different thing. 

We can still worry about anything but we ignore the problem or person related to the circumstances that we are facing. 

Lets not being worry yet ignorance in our life, but bring our petition before the Lord. He will guide us to go through our life. 

Philipians 4:6-7

6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Lets we enjoy our days in years ahead with Him. and do listen to His guidance. :) 

Do remind each other yo...

I do

I took the flight today (29 dec 2011) going back to indo. Have such a great bros and sis who sent me off even though im going only for 1 month. But really feel their love.

Melisa, one of my good friends, gave me a book "Completely His loving Jesus without limit" to accompany me during my flight and during my bored moment in indo.


While waiting to take off, I opened the book. And I read the preface. Where its something unusual for me to do. I love to jump into the contain itself because I feel it will waste my time and effort to read the preface.

But to my surprise, while I read her preface I can sense that she really put her identity as Jesus's bride. where in the end of her prepafe, She gives thanks to her bridegroom Jesus and once again said 'I do'.

while I read the word 'I do' I question myself, what kind of 'I do' statement that she pronounce?

Is it something when people ask you do you want to have lunch this afternoon, and your answer will be i do.

But I found it isn't that kind of answer. And suddently my memory flashed back on early of this month where I attended 'ai" and beto' wedding, where they make a vow towards one another. They vow to be together in sickness an health, in poor and rich, only death will set them apart.


Well if you are married, in relationship or even maybe you are single right now, but you know that in marriage life will not be honeymoon stage all the time. There are a moment where you quarell, you upset with your partner. But because of your vow, you will continue together and learn to love one another unconditionally. There are a moment where you have no more 'lust' but because of your vow, you choose to love.


Friends when I flashed back on this, deep inside my heart believe that when she said 'I do', she knows that she wont be seperated with her bridegroom through many circumstances she might need to face. Because she will keep the love of her groom.

In our Christian walk with Jesus, there are times that we lost our first love towards Him, we lost our excitement and fire to be with His presence.
But as we grow in our spirituality, I believe we will be tested in our love commitment with our creator.
So do we still remember our vow when we invite Him to be our Lord and saviour?
Do we still love Him aside of all the circumstances that we faced?

are we going to say "I do" once again to Him?

I said "I do".

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I need you more

Have u ever feel alone? Have u ever feel that nobody understand u? Or do u feel that u jealous over ur frens because they have someone to be rely on?

Recently i upgraded my iphone os to ios5 and it caused all my song list gone. I only have 4 songs in my iphone. And practically, i listen to these songs everyday and it has been repeated for many times.
There is particularly song from bethel "I need You more". I do love this song. But as i listen to this song many times, i asked God how much do i need God.

While i asked this question, God remind me on the feeling of being alone and lonely. Then He said as you feel this, means you need Me even more in your life. Because only Him that can satisfy my soul. He is the only one that i need to feel that emptiness. Not money, not wealth, not bf or gf, but Him alone. when before i dont feel lonely, i need Him, How much more when i feel lonely. I need Him even more.

So im learning to ask for more of Him each day in my life. :)

Open eye open heart

Recently in one of my facebook group share about character. Where the things what is seen not always real. But what is inside more matter. We cant just judge by the book. Well i totally agree with that.


But 1 question that i want to post:
"how to know what is inside if it always been keep inside? If it never come out how do you know the true? Or if what we see is true or not?"


In relationship, i believe that before i decided i must open eye big big and open ear. See and listen from other people. But when u had decided, time to close eye and ear. U have to take every single thing about your partner.

I actually struggle also to know and to judge which is right which is wrong. Because when u open ur eye and ur ear, there are a lot of noise, distrubance from surround us and make us confuse.
But i thanks God, all this while God not only brought me to see with my eye, but with my heart also.
There is a story in bible where Jesus met His disciple after he rose from the death. But His disciple cant recognise Him. After He spend the whole day with them then Jesus opened their eye, it doesnt mean that they are blind, they juat dont see Him with the eye of their heart. only when Jesus did that they were able to recognise Him.

It teaches me when i see a person, i need to open eye and open heart. When i see someone doing something, i cant jump into conclusion. But i need the wisdom and guidance from Holy Spirit.
But in the other hand as i posted a queation on how to know if we didnt see, it teaches me to learn to act right.

As in the paul said, i will show my love with action. In the other word, i will show u what is inside my heart with action, with something tht people can see with their physical eye.
We need to act our attitude. But once again people will only see it with their physical eye if we dont have heart in doing it. We can reach their heart when we communicate with heart.

So friends, remember that we need to build our character within because it will grow stronger but not to forget to act right. And before you judge people, open eye, open heart. :)

Destiny

Its been a while that I post in my blog. And thia moment, one question pop up in my mind is destiny. Where is my destination? Some people may tell me, dont you know where is your destiny?
Yes, i know my final destination that i will meet my creator. But how am i doing right now in a journey to my destination?
I was being reminded by a song by miley cyrus, "The Climb". It goes like this :

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep the faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

If I interpret it the climb to life, I see it that its not about what i will achieve the most important. But how i am living my life.

So how am i living my life????

heart 

How's my heart now? I tot that i know the answer. But many time my heart deceive me. Like what Ps. Jo shared last sunday, many time we are deceived by our heart. Only God can show us our heart. So He encouraged u to keep continue to ask God to reveal our heart. Well we really do need holy spirit as guidance and wisdom.

Some people surround me might tell me what they observe about me and they can guess what inside my heart, but honestly speaking even i cant trust my heart. Im struggling to trust my heart on certain thing. I know that the level of my trust with my heart is not in a normal level. I need to work it out. And im working on it now.

Jia you yuli!!!

WOMAN

Recently, i posted a question to some of my girl friends. If they are in korean drama where there are 2 guys loves them. where the:
First guy : Perfect guy means has stability in financial, emotional, kind to her, sacrifice a lot for her and also love her very much. If you with him, you can rest assure that you will been taking care of.
Second guy : Normal guy means from the eye of people he still have no stability. He is nice and sacrifice a lot for her also but when you with him, you will have more complicated problem. the biggest thing that you consider about him that you enjoy with him. you really do feel that you have life.

and to my surprise or may be its normal, all the girl will follow as what the actress in korean drama chose. Guy no 2. if woman use their brain, they will choose no 1. because life will be easier. less problematic.
but God created woman with feeling. and sometime they willing to sacrifice themselves for something that they love. Woman feeling cant be trade with wealth. when woman choose you because of wealth, that for sure she dont have any feeling towards you.

so girls, who will you choose?
guys, if you are the first guy what will you do?

Under His wing

Recently or right way to say this morning i juat finished 1 project. Well this project is not a big project and i need to handle it myself. Start from arrangement, documentation, commisioning, testing, till BOM and punch list i need to do it by myself.
As i told u earlier, its not a big project so they expect this will be a simple thing. But not to forget this project is critical. Because if i cant do well, there is a probability that i will make plant upset. So i was so worried about all the preparation, all document, all hardware which needed. I was not confidence with myself.
I did the same job before and it dragged me more than 1 month to finish it. So in this project i scared and cast that things to happen.
In the first day i was supposed to assist the contractor to lay the cable. But customer didnt coordinate with contractor so end up we couldnt do it that day. I was so relieved. Because i was nervous to start. I returned back to office to prepare all the things which i found it missed.
Second day, laying up the cable plus mount the server in the rack. I had planned the task lists which i wanted to do that day. But it amazes me how smooth it is. And even i could do additional things which is download the project into the server and its successful. Still in amazed mode, third day i did the critical thing which is to break the network and extend it to the new server. After all the preparation had done, we break the connection. And it also went smooth. I did wonder and ask God how can this thing happen?
And i was reminded by the verse that i read the day before.

The Lord detests the sacrifice of the wicked,
but the prayer of the upright pleases him. (Proverbs 15:8 NIV)

As i prayed every morning to bring my downcast before Him, He hear me. And he gives me assurance that he is near and taking control over my life.

Thank you Father.

WHO?

He tough me who is in front of David when he fought goliath.

He reminded me that He is there when Joseph in the deep dry wheel.

He told me to take courage as what HE told Joshua.

He gives me protection and assurance as He did to Daniel in Lion den.

He awake me to see as He sees the heart of the people.

He urge me to be wise as a woman, Abigail did the same.

He pour me with His Love, Grace and Mercy even tough i know im not worth but by His blood i had been paid fully. :)

I am an Apple of His eyes.

Philippians 1:6

New International Version (NIV)

⁶ being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

Be prepared

This few days i always at customer site where im a bit secluded from out side world. Weak signal in my blackberry and iphone.
I was thinking my batery is sufficient for my day at site since i would not use it. So i dont charge my portable batery. But evryday it will end up no batery in my bb n iphone. I went out from site with no device to communicate.
And i told myself, i should just charge my portable batery so when it is finished i have extra batery to charge it till i reach home to recharge it fully.
From this incident, i was being reminded by a story in the bible about 10 virgins. Where the 5 virgins have extra oil when they were waiting for the groom to come while the other 5 didnt. I feel like the virgin who didnt bring more oil to prepare for the groom to come.

Sometime we might feel that our life is ok so its enough for us to know what we need to know. We might things its enough for me to go to heaven. But we didnt prepare ourself for it fully. As the wise virgin know they do not know when the groom will come so they prepare for an extra oil with them. Where the unwise think its enough for them since they only waiting for the time.
But we know that in the end, the unwise cant enter the party.

So friends let prepare our life and continue to bring extra oil while we are waiting for Him to come!

Operate under divine authority

My work always relating with operator. For what i need to design it will be operated by the operator. And yesterday i created some sequence for safety purposes but i havent put the sequence into operation. I had told the engineer for all the things i had done and give him a copy of the sequence before i left.

This morning before i left home to go to site again, i imagined how if the engineer put the sequence into operation while im not there. In my mind i think about the whether they do the preparation or not. Whether they really know the sequence or not. And i told myself, i will tell them why dont they wait for my presence there to activate that. Because im the creator of the sequence so i can help them to prepare all the things they need.

Then suddently God told me.
"I am your creator. Why dont you let my presence in ur life so that I can help you to operate yourself"

Yes, as i upset with my customer to operate the sequence without my presence (because i know it step by step) i learn that God is our creator and know step by step what we need to do.
But sometime we think that we know and we an do it ourselves since we had read the manual. But when the creator itself explain to us, it will bring us to operate our life fully.

So seek holy spirit to guide you to operate your life today!

It's ME

what happen to me recently? i do feel tired for the past 1 week. start from where i couldnt get sleep last monday.
but now i can fall asleep as soon as i put my head to my pillow. (so pardon me if i didnt reply some of the message or suddently i disappeared)

In one of the night last week, i dream a dream where i felt so drain emotionally. And i do not know what to do if it is real. Well, as someone who like to control things out i lost idea on how to control. So He said to give Him the control. :) im learning to surrender it to Him now. Its such a tiring job to take control of something you cant control.

You know what? Its been a while that people surround me give me stuff relate to woman, either book, accesories etc. And not only that in my devotion also, God lead me to learn about the women in the bible. How a woman can be a great advisorand encourager to the man. Not only that, they can bring disaster to the whole house also. So i guess proverb explain how woman must have God wisdom in managing the house.
Oh gosh!!! Its so chim. -_-"

I really do no know how to put it into practice but i believe, HS u guide me through till i reach that level. :)

26th birthday

As what other people want, i also have the same desire to have a plenty of wishes. but you know what, when i was thinking over my wish for this year birthday, God told me to give thanks. well, yes im thankful with all the things that He gave, but cant i ask for more???

I am someone who like to challenge myself especially when i have some desire. so this round i challenged myself. i questioned myself why do i need these wishes? and it ended up i have 3 wishes and i learn to give instead of ask God to give.

oh yah, before i list down all my wishes i want to shared how do i come out with these list.

on the day itself, God lead me to recap back on how much growth that i passed through. since i was small till now. and from here i can see how wonderful is the journey that God set for me. and i become so grateful. i was in down moment but He is always there. He provides me with friends to encourage me.

so i found Psalm 71

especially in verse 20

"Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up."

yup i was in the valley, i was hurt, i was down but He brought me up. He help me to rise back. :)

My wish list:

1. I will find the strength in God until im old

2. My family will be build in God's word

3. Sensitivity toward God's voice in my life.

here is some of the photo of the gifts that i received from the people that i love. I'm so grateful. :)