I do

I took the flight today (29 dec 2011) going back to indo. Have such a great bros and sis who sent me off even though im going only for 1 month. But really feel their love.

Melisa, one of my good friends, gave me a book "Completely His loving Jesus without limit" to accompany me during my flight and during my bored moment in indo.


While waiting to take off, I opened the book. And I read the preface. Where its something unusual for me to do. I love to jump into the contain itself because I feel it will waste my time and effort to read the preface.

But to my surprise, while I read her preface I can sense that she really put her identity as Jesus's bride. where in the end of her prepafe, She gives thanks to her bridegroom Jesus and once again said 'I do'.

while I read the word 'I do' I question myself, what kind of 'I do' statement that she pronounce?

Is it something when people ask you do you want to have lunch this afternoon, and your answer will be i do.

But I found it isn't that kind of answer. And suddently my memory flashed back on early of this month where I attended 'ai" and beto' wedding, where they make a vow towards one another. They vow to be together in sickness an health, in poor and rich, only death will set them apart.


Well if you are married, in relationship or even maybe you are single right now, but you know that in marriage life will not be honeymoon stage all the time. There are a moment where you quarell, you upset with your partner. But because of your vow, you will continue together and learn to love one another unconditionally. There are a moment where you have no more 'lust' but because of your vow, you choose to love.


Friends when I flashed back on this, deep inside my heart believe that when she said 'I do', she knows that she wont be seperated with her bridegroom through many circumstances she might need to face. Because she will keep the love of her groom.

In our Christian walk with Jesus, there are times that we lost our first love towards Him, we lost our excitement and fire to be with His presence.
But as we grow in our spirituality, I believe we will be tested in our love commitment with our creator.
So do we still remember our vow when we invite Him to be our Lord and saviour?
Do we still love Him aside of all the circumstances that we faced?

are we going to say "I do" once again to Him?

I said "I do".

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I need you more

Have u ever feel alone? Have u ever feel that nobody understand u? Or do u feel that u jealous over ur frens because they have someone to be rely on?

Recently i upgraded my iphone os to ios5 and it caused all my song list gone. I only have 4 songs in my iphone. And practically, i listen to these songs everyday and it has been repeated for many times.
There is particularly song from bethel "I need You more". I do love this song. But as i listen to this song many times, i asked God how much do i need God.

While i asked this question, God remind me on the feeling of being alone and lonely. Then He said as you feel this, means you need Me even more in your life. Because only Him that can satisfy my soul. He is the only one that i need to feel that emptiness. Not money, not wealth, not bf or gf, but Him alone. when before i dont feel lonely, i need Him, How much more when i feel lonely. I need Him even more.

So im learning to ask for more of Him each day in my life. :)

Open eye open heart

Recently in one of my facebook group share about character. Where the things what is seen not always real. But what is inside more matter. We cant just judge by the book. Well i totally agree with that.


But 1 question that i want to post:
"how to know what is inside if it always been keep inside? If it never come out how do you know the true? Or if what we see is true or not?"


In relationship, i believe that before i decided i must open eye big big and open ear. See and listen from other people. But when u had decided, time to close eye and ear. U have to take every single thing about your partner.

I actually struggle also to know and to judge which is right which is wrong. Because when u open ur eye and ur ear, there are a lot of noise, distrubance from surround us and make us confuse.
But i thanks God, all this while God not only brought me to see with my eye, but with my heart also.
There is a story in bible where Jesus met His disciple after he rose from the death. But His disciple cant recognise Him. After He spend the whole day with them then Jesus opened their eye, it doesnt mean that they are blind, they juat dont see Him with the eye of their heart. only when Jesus did that they were able to recognise Him.

It teaches me when i see a person, i need to open eye and open heart. When i see someone doing something, i cant jump into conclusion. But i need the wisdom and guidance from Holy Spirit.
But in the other hand as i posted a queation on how to know if we didnt see, it teaches me to learn to act right.

As in the paul said, i will show my love with action. In the other word, i will show u what is inside my heart with action, with something tht people can see with their physical eye.
We need to act our attitude. But once again people will only see it with their physical eye if we dont have heart in doing it. We can reach their heart when we communicate with heart.

So friends, remember that we need to build our character within because it will grow stronger but not to forget to act right. And before you judge people, open eye, open heart. :)

Destiny

Its been a while that I post in my blog. And thia moment, one question pop up in my mind is destiny. Where is my destination? Some people may tell me, dont you know where is your destiny?
Yes, i know my final destination that i will meet my creator. But how am i doing right now in a journey to my destination?
I was being reminded by a song by miley cyrus, "The Climb". It goes like this :

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep the faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

If I interpret it the climb to life, I see it that its not about what i will achieve the most important. But how i am living my life.

So how am i living my life????

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How's my heart now? I tot that i know the answer. But many time my heart deceive me. Like what Ps. Jo shared last sunday, many time we are deceived by our heart. Only God can show us our heart. So He encouraged u to keep continue to ask God to reveal our heart. Well we really do need holy spirit as guidance and wisdom.

Some people surround me might tell me what they observe about me and they can guess what inside my heart, but honestly speaking even i cant trust my heart. Im struggling to trust my heart on certain thing. I know that the level of my trust with my heart is not in a normal level. I need to work it out. And im working on it now.

Jia you yuli!!!

WOMAN

Recently, i posted a question to some of my girl friends. If they are in korean drama where there are 2 guys loves them. where the:
First guy : Perfect guy means has stability in financial, emotional, kind to her, sacrifice a lot for her and also love her very much. If you with him, you can rest assure that you will been taking care of.
Second guy : Normal guy means from the eye of people he still have no stability. He is nice and sacrifice a lot for her also but when you with him, you will have more complicated problem. the biggest thing that you consider about him that you enjoy with him. you really do feel that you have life.

and to my surprise or may be its normal, all the girl will follow as what the actress in korean drama chose. Guy no 2. if woman use their brain, they will choose no 1. because life will be easier. less problematic.
but God created woman with feeling. and sometime they willing to sacrifice themselves for something that they love. Woman feeling cant be trade with wealth. when woman choose you because of wealth, that for sure she dont have any feeling towards you.

so girls, who will you choose?
guys, if you are the first guy what will you do?