Be prepared

This few days i always at customer site where im a bit secluded from out side world. Weak signal in my blackberry and iphone.
I was thinking my batery is sufficient for my day at site since i would not use it. So i dont charge my portable batery. But evryday it will end up no batery in my bb n iphone. I went out from site with no device to communicate.
And i told myself, i should just charge my portable batery so when it is finished i have extra batery to charge it till i reach home to recharge it fully.
From this incident, i was being reminded by a story in the bible about 10 virgins. Where the 5 virgins have extra oil when they were waiting for the groom to come while the other 5 didnt. I feel like the virgin who didnt bring more oil to prepare for the groom to come.

Sometime we might feel that our life is ok so its enough for us to know what we need to know. We might things its enough for me to go to heaven. But we didnt prepare ourself for it fully. As the wise virgin know they do not know when the groom will come so they prepare for an extra oil with them. Where the unwise think its enough for them since they only waiting for the time.
But we know that in the end, the unwise cant enter the party.

So friends let prepare our life and continue to bring extra oil while we are waiting for Him to come!

Operate under divine authority

My work always relating with operator. For what i need to design it will be operated by the operator. And yesterday i created some sequence for safety purposes but i havent put the sequence into operation. I had told the engineer for all the things i had done and give him a copy of the sequence before i left.

This morning before i left home to go to site again, i imagined how if the engineer put the sequence into operation while im not there. In my mind i think about the whether they do the preparation or not. Whether they really know the sequence or not. And i told myself, i will tell them why dont they wait for my presence there to activate that. Because im the creator of the sequence so i can help them to prepare all the things they need.

Then suddently God told me.
"I am your creator. Why dont you let my presence in ur life so that I can help you to operate yourself"

Yes, as i upset with my customer to operate the sequence without my presence (because i know it step by step) i learn that God is our creator and know step by step what we need to do.
But sometime we think that we know and we an do it ourselves since we had read the manual. But when the creator itself explain to us, it will bring us to operate our life fully.

So seek holy spirit to guide you to operate your life today!

It's ME

what happen to me recently? i do feel tired for the past 1 week. start from where i couldnt get sleep last monday.
but now i can fall asleep as soon as i put my head to my pillow. (so pardon me if i didnt reply some of the message or suddently i disappeared)

In one of the night last week, i dream a dream where i felt so drain emotionally. And i do not know what to do if it is real. Well, as someone who like to control things out i lost idea on how to control. So He said to give Him the control. :) im learning to surrender it to Him now. Its such a tiring job to take control of something you cant control.

You know what? Its been a while that people surround me give me stuff relate to woman, either book, accesories etc. And not only that in my devotion also, God lead me to learn about the women in the bible. How a woman can be a great advisorand encourager to the man. Not only that, they can bring disaster to the whole house also. So i guess proverb explain how woman must have God wisdom in managing the house.
Oh gosh!!! Its so chim. -_-"

I really do no know how to put it into practice but i believe, HS u guide me through till i reach that level. :)

26th birthday

As what other people want, i also have the same desire to have a plenty of wishes. but you know what, when i was thinking over my wish for this year birthday, God told me to give thanks. well, yes im thankful with all the things that He gave, but cant i ask for more???

I am someone who like to challenge myself especially when i have some desire. so this round i challenged myself. i questioned myself why do i need these wishes? and it ended up i have 3 wishes and i learn to give instead of ask God to give.

oh yah, before i list down all my wishes i want to shared how do i come out with these list.

on the day itself, God lead me to recap back on how much growth that i passed through. since i was small till now. and from here i can see how wonderful is the journey that God set for me. and i become so grateful. i was in down moment but He is always there. He provides me with friends to encourage me.

so i found Psalm 71

especially in verse 20

"Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up."

yup i was in the valley, i was hurt, i was down but He brought me up. He help me to rise back. :)

My wish list:

1. I will find the strength in God until im old

2. My family will be build in God's word

3. Sensitivity toward God's voice in my life.

here is some of the photo of the gifts that i received from the people that i love. I'm so grateful. :)

Growing point

I had a little walk just now after I managed to find the problem at my custumer server and I decided to reward myself with mc flurry. :D

while I walked, I made a quick evaluation on what is my growing point for this month or rather what i have learned this whole month.

1. God allow me to learn from all the women character in the bible. how woman can take up her role in man life. and how they can react to the surrounding. Delilah, Jezebel are the example when we as a woman use our strength on the wrong things. but in the other side Esther, Ruth they used it not for themselves. self centred life must be a no lifestyle for woman.

2. Be merciful and give kindness to anyone. God didnt choose which sin that He wants to be mercy with you. as He is merciful towards me, I must learn to be merciful also toward all people. and kindness will be the character that i want to build.

3. as I desire to have a great encounter with God, He is more than desired to have that too. I really want to be in His embrace, He hugs me and say "yuli, u know that I always beside u. and I do care for your life." He is ready in any moment to embrace me. :)

4. 1 John 4:19 We love because He first love us.

well, sometimes i have a mind set that since im a christian, i need to do good and learn to love people. and it drain me sometimes. i feel tired, i feel useless to love. He reminds me that because i received the love from Him first, and i received the goodness from Him so it will be the source for me to do good and loveable. its not me that im able to love. but its because of Him than im able to love people. So while i remain in His love, i will produce the love itself.

well, i guess this will be my point to be pondered as i evaluate more on my journey in this 26th years... :)

Surrender all with giving the best attitude

I feel a bit frustrated recently that i didnt treasure my time with Him. God questioned me a lot who He is in my life. Yup who is He in my life? Am i really take Him as my God? My father? My Friend? i have to remember this. Remember my identity as His chosen one.

yesterday in LG, i was being reminded by the story of Joseph who sold by his brothers to Egyptian. During that gathering we were lead into a moment of surrendering our life to God. So when God reminded me about Joseph, at first i was reluctant to share about Joseph. Because i cant see the relationship between this two. But as i allowed to be used by God, He told me about giving our best while we surrender our life to Him. Yes, He asks us to surrender our life, our heart, all we are to Him. but He doesn't want us to have "dont care" spirit. since we surrender it to God so we lift it to Him. What He wants us to do while we surrender it to Him, we need to do our best. as Joseph did also. even though he went through circumstances, he never give up and continue to do his best.

YUP!! Let's do out best while we are here in this earth!!!

I name him Joshua!!

I feel overwhelming today. I feel so bless with the community that I have. The environment, the job that i have. I do not know how to express my gratitude toward Him.

Actually it has been sometime when i decided to sponsor 1 kid. The reason is because im too greatful with the blessing that He had given. A great family, even though its not a perfect family but its a perfect place for me to grow.

Just want to give other people a chance to taste the goodness of God in their life. A chance to be the blessing channel.

Finally, today I register myself to give sponsor though Compassion International (http://www.compassion.com/)

Lowasa Loreu Mosingo from Tanzania

I havent received the sponsoring packet where in that packet email, i will know more about him and able to communicate through the address given there.

He is 16 years old. Many people asked me why did i choose older child. younger one is better.

There are few reason why i chose him:

1. I narrow down the option to those orphan kids

2. From AIDS effected area

3. Older child less people want to take

4. I want him to be Joshua generation who will rise up for his generation

Teenage is the moment where we try to find our identity. I want him to really know who he is in God eye. and to be confidence with the plan that God had given to him.

i was ponder back, I am chosen by God to be His child. what is the reason that He chose me?

well, i believe there is something that He sees in me. and He have vision in my life. so i need to catch that vision and learn to see not only from my perspective.

He chose me to be the Joshua generation who will enter the promise land, the new world.