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I need you more

Have u ever feel alone? Have u ever feel that nobody understand u? Or do u feel that u jealous over ur frens because they have someone to be rely on?

Recently i upgraded my iphone os to ios5 and it caused all my song list gone. I only have 4 songs in my iphone. And practically, i listen to these songs everyday and it has been repeated for many times.
There is particularly song from bethel "I need You more". I do love this song. But as i listen to this song many times, i asked God how much do i need God.

While i asked this question, God remind me on the feeling of being alone and lonely. Then He said as you feel this, means you need Me even more in your life. Because only Him that can satisfy my soul. He is the only one that i need to feel that emptiness. Not money, not wealth, not bf or gf, but Him alone. when before i dont feel lonely, i need Him, How much more when i feel lonely. I need Him even more.

So im learning to ask for more of Him each day in my life. :)

Open eye open heart

Recently in one of my facebook group share about character. Where the things what is seen not always real. But what is inside more matter. We cant just judge by the book. Well i totally agree with that.


But 1 question that i want to post:
"how to know what is inside if it always been keep inside? If it never come out how do you know the true? Or if what we see is true or not?"


In relationship, i believe that before i decided i must open eye big big and open ear. See and listen from other people. But when u had decided, time to close eye and ear. U have to take every single thing about your partner.

I actually struggle also to know and to judge which is right which is wrong. Because when u open ur eye and ur ear, there are a lot of noise, distrubance from surround us and make us confuse.
But i thanks God, all this while God not only brought me to see with my eye, but with my heart also.
There is a story in bible where Jesus met His disciple after he rose from the death. But His disciple cant recognise Him. After He spend the whole day with them then Jesus opened their eye, it doesnt mean that they are blind, they juat dont see Him with the eye of their heart. only when Jesus did that they were able to recognise Him.

It teaches me when i see a person, i need to open eye and open heart. When i see someone doing something, i cant jump into conclusion. But i need the wisdom and guidance from Holy Spirit.
But in the other hand as i posted a queation on how to know if we didnt see, it teaches me to learn to act right.

As in the paul said, i will show my love with action. In the other word, i will show u what is inside my heart with action, with something tht people can see with their physical eye.
We need to act our attitude. But once again people will only see it with their physical eye if we dont have heart in doing it. We can reach their heart when we communicate with heart.

So friends, remember that we need to build our character within because it will grow stronger but not to forget to act right. And before you judge people, open eye, open heart. :)

Destiny

Its been a while that I post in my blog. And thia moment, one question pop up in my mind is destiny. Where is my destination? Some people may tell me, dont you know where is your destiny?
Yes, i know my final destination that i will meet my creator. But how am i doing right now in a journey to my destination?
I was being reminded by a song by miley cyrus, "The Climb". It goes like this :

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep the faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

If I interpret it the climb to life, I see it that its not about what i will achieve the most important. But how i am living my life.

So how am i living my life????

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How's my heart now? I tot that i know the answer. But many time my heart deceive me. Like what Ps. Jo shared last sunday, many time we are deceived by our heart. Only God can show us our heart. So He encouraged u to keep continue to ask God to reveal our heart. Well we really do need holy spirit as guidance and wisdom.

Some people surround me might tell me what they observe about me and they can guess what inside my heart, but honestly speaking even i cant trust my heart. Im struggling to trust my heart on certain thing. I know that the level of my trust with my heart is not in a normal level. I need to work it out. And im working on it now.

Jia you yuli!!!

WOMAN

Recently, i posted a question to some of my girl friends. If they are in korean drama where there are 2 guys loves them. where the:
First guy : Perfect guy means has stability in financial, emotional, kind to her, sacrifice a lot for her and also love her very much. If you with him, you can rest assure that you will been taking care of.
Second guy : Normal guy means from the eye of people he still have no stability. He is nice and sacrifice a lot for her also but when you with him, you will have more complicated problem. the biggest thing that you consider about him that you enjoy with him. you really do feel that you have life.

and to my surprise or may be its normal, all the girl will follow as what the actress in korean drama chose. Guy no 2. if woman use their brain, they will choose no 1. because life will be easier. less problematic.
but God created woman with feeling. and sometime they willing to sacrifice themselves for something that they love. Woman feeling cant be trade with wealth. when woman choose you because of wealth, that for sure she dont have any feeling towards you.

so girls, who will you choose?
guys, if you are the first guy what will you do?

Under His wing

Recently or right way to say this morning i juat finished 1 project. Well this project is not a big project and i need to handle it myself. Start from arrangement, documentation, commisioning, testing, till BOM and punch list i need to do it by myself.
As i told u earlier, its not a big project so they expect this will be a simple thing. But not to forget this project is critical. Because if i cant do well, there is a probability that i will make plant upset. So i was so worried about all the preparation, all document, all hardware which needed. I was not confidence with myself.
I did the same job before and it dragged me more than 1 month to finish it. So in this project i scared and cast that things to happen.
In the first day i was supposed to assist the contractor to lay the cable. But customer didnt coordinate with contractor so end up we couldnt do it that day. I was so relieved. Because i was nervous to start. I returned back to office to prepare all the things which i found it missed.
Second day, laying up the cable plus mount the server in the rack. I had planned the task lists which i wanted to do that day. But it amazes me how smooth it is. And even i could do additional things which is download the project into the server and its successful. Still in amazed mode, third day i did the critical thing which is to break the network and extend it to the new server. After all the preparation had done, we break the connection. And it also went smooth. I did wonder and ask God how can this thing happen?
And i was reminded by the verse that i read the day before.

The Lord detests the sacrifice of the wicked,
but the prayer of the upright pleases him. (Proverbs 15:8 NIV)

As i prayed every morning to bring my downcast before Him, He hear me. And he gives me assurance that he is near and taking control over my life.

Thank you Father.

WHO?

He tough me who is in front of David when he fought goliath.

He reminded me that He is there when Joseph in the deep dry wheel.

He told me to take courage as what HE told Joshua.

He gives me protection and assurance as He did to Daniel in Lion den.

He awake me to see as He sees the heart of the people.

He urge me to be wise as a woman, Abigail did the same.

He pour me with His Love, Grace and Mercy even tough i know im not worth but by His blood i had been paid fully. :)

I am an Apple of His eyes.

Philippians 1:6

New International Version (NIV)

⁶ being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

Be prepared

This few days i always at customer site where im a bit secluded from out side world. Weak signal in my blackberry and iphone.
I was thinking my batery is sufficient for my day at site since i would not use it. So i dont charge my portable batery. But evryday it will end up no batery in my bb n iphone. I went out from site with no device to communicate.
And i told myself, i should just charge my portable batery so when it is finished i have extra batery to charge it till i reach home to recharge it fully.
From this incident, i was being reminded by a story in the bible about 10 virgins. Where the 5 virgins have extra oil when they were waiting for the groom to come while the other 5 didnt. I feel like the virgin who didnt bring more oil to prepare for the groom to come.

Sometime we might feel that our life is ok so its enough for us to know what we need to know. We might things its enough for me to go to heaven. But we didnt prepare ourself for it fully. As the wise virgin know they do not know when the groom will come so they prepare for an extra oil with them. Where the unwise think its enough for them since they only waiting for the time.
But we know that in the end, the unwise cant enter the party.

So friends let prepare our life and continue to bring extra oil while we are waiting for Him to come!

Operate under divine authority

My work always relating with operator. For what i need to design it will be operated by the operator. And yesterday i created some sequence for safety purposes but i havent put the sequence into operation. I had told the engineer for all the things i had done and give him a copy of the sequence before i left.

This morning before i left home to go to site again, i imagined how if the engineer put the sequence into operation while im not there. In my mind i think about the whether they do the preparation or not. Whether they really know the sequence or not. And i told myself, i will tell them why dont they wait for my presence there to activate that. Because im the creator of the sequence so i can help them to prepare all the things they need.

Then suddently God told me.
"I am your creator. Why dont you let my presence in ur life so that I can help you to operate yourself"

Yes, as i upset with my customer to operate the sequence without my presence (because i know it step by step) i learn that God is our creator and know step by step what we need to do.
But sometime we think that we know and we an do it ourselves since we had read the manual. But when the creator itself explain to us, it will bring us to operate our life fully.

So seek holy spirit to guide you to operate your life today!

It's ME

what happen to me recently? i do feel tired for the past 1 week. start from where i couldnt get sleep last monday.
but now i can fall asleep as soon as i put my head to my pillow. (so pardon me if i didnt reply some of the message or suddently i disappeared)

In one of the night last week, i dream a dream where i felt so drain emotionally. And i do not know what to do if it is real. Well, as someone who like to control things out i lost idea on how to control. So He said to give Him the control. :) im learning to surrender it to Him now. Its such a tiring job to take control of something you cant control.

You know what? Its been a while that people surround me give me stuff relate to woman, either book, accesories etc. And not only that in my devotion also, God lead me to learn about the women in the bible. How a woman can be a great advisorand encourager to the man. Not only that, they can bring disaster to the whole house also. So i guess proverb explain how woman must have God wisdom in managing the house.
Oh gosh!!! Its so chim. -_-"

I really do no know how to put it into practice but i believe, HS u guide me through till i reach that level. :)

26th birthday

As what other people want, i also have the same desire to have a plenty of wishes. but you know what, when i was thinking over my wish for this year birthday, God told me to give thanks. well, yes im thankful with all the things that He gave, but cant i ask for more???

I am someone who like to challenge myself especially when i have some desire. so this round i challenged myself. i questioned myself why do i need these wishes? and it ended up i have 3 wishes and i learn to give instead of ask God to give.

oh yah, before i list down all my wishes i want to shared how do i come out with these list.

on the day itself, God lead me to recap back on how much growth that i passed through. since i was small till now. and from here i can see how wonderful is the journey that God set for me. and i become so grateful. i was in down moment but He is always there. He provides me with friends to encourage me.

so i found Psalm 71

especially in verse 20

"Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up."

yup i was in the valley, i was hurt, i was down but He brought me up. He help me to rise back. :)

My wish list:

1. I will find the strength in God until im old

2. My family will be build in God's word

3. Sensitivity toward God's voice in my life.

here is some of the photo of the gifts that i received from the people that i love. I'm so grateful. :)

Growing point

I had a little walk just now after I managed to find the problem at my custumer server and I decided to reward myself with mc flurry. :D

while I walked, I made a quick evaluation on what is my growing point for this month or rather what i have learned this whole month.

1. God allow me to learn from all the women character in the bible. how woman can take up her role in man life. and how they can react to the surrounding. Delilah, Jezebel are the example when we as a woman use our strength on the wrong things. but in the other side Esther, Ruth they used it not for themselves. self centred life must be a no lifestyle for woman.

2. Be merciful and give kindness to anyone. God didnt choose which sin that He wants to be mercy with you. as He is merciful towards me, I must learn to be merciful also toward all people. and kindness will be the character that i want to build.

3. as I desire to have a great encounter with God, He is more than desired to have that too. I really want to be in His embrace, He hugs me and say "yuli, u know that I always beside u. and I do care for your life." He is ready in any moment to embrace me. :)

4. 1 John 4:19 We love because He first love us.

well, sometimes i have a mind set that since im a christian, i need to do good and learn to love people. and it drain me sometimes. i feel tired, i feel useless to love. He reminds me that because i received the love from Him first, and i received the goodness from Him so it will be the source for me to do good and loveable. its not me that im able to love. but its because of Him than im able to love people. So while i remain in His love, i will produce the love itself.

well, i guess this will be my point to be pondered as i evaluate more on my journey in this 26th years... :)

Surrender all with giving the best attitude

I feel a bit frustrated recently that i didnt treasure my time with Him. God questioned me a lot who He is in my life. Yup who is He in my life? Am i really take Him as my God? My father? My Friend? i have to remember this. Remember my identity as His chosen one.

yesterday in LG, i was being reminded by the story of Joseph who sold by his brothers to Egyptian. During that gathering we were lead into a moment of surrendering our life to God. So when God reminded me about Joseph, at first i was reluctant to share about Joseph. Because i cant see the relationship between this two. But as i allowed to be used by God, He told me about giving our best while we surrender our life to Him. Yes, He asks us to surrender our life, our heart, all we are to Him. but He doesn't want us to have "dont care" spirit. since we surrender it to God so we lift it to Him. What He wants us to do while we surrender it to Him, we need to do our best. as Joseph did also. even though he went through circumstances, he never give up and continue to do his best.

YUP!! Let's do out best while we are here in this earth!!!

I name him Joshua!!

I feel overwhelming today. I feel so bless with the community that I have. The environment, the job that i have. I do not know how to express my gratitude toward Him.

Actually it has been sometime when i decided to sponsor 1 kid. The reason is because im too greatful with the blessing that He had given. A great family, even though its not a perfect family but its a perfect place for me to grow.

Just want to give other people a chance to taste the goodness of God in their life. A chance to be the blessing channel.

Finally, today I register myself to give sponsor though Compassion International (http://www.compassion.com/)

Lowasa Loreu Mosingo from Tanzania

I havent received the sponsoring packet where in that packet email, i will know more about him and able to communicate through the address given there.

He is 16 years old. Many people asked me why did i choose older child. younger one is better.

There are few reason why i chose him:

1. I narrow down the option to those orphan kids

2. From AIDS effected area

3. Older child less people want to take

4. I want him to be Joshua generation who will rise up for his generation

Teenage is the moment where we try to find our identity. I want him to really know who he is in God eye. and to be confidence with the plan that God had given to him.

i was ponder back, I am chosen by God to be His child. what is the reason that He chose me?

well, i believe there is something that He sees in me. and He have vision in my life. so i need to catch that vision and learn to see not only from my perspective.

He chose me to be the Joshua generation who will enter the promise land, the new world.

Belajar dari Keterbatasan

FRIDAY, 20 MAY 2011

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Waktu dalam hidup itu harus dipakai sedemikian rupa sehingga setiap hari kita dapat mencapai sesuatu yang baik. Ada orang yang berdalih bahwa waktu yang ada ini tidaklah cukup untuk menyelesaikan pekerjaannya. Tetapi apakah benar 24 jam sehari adalah waktu yang sedikit, sehingga kita tidak punya waktu untuk hal-hal penting lainnya, seperti menjalin hubungan dengan Tuhan atau dengan orang terdekat kita?

Ada tiga langkah yang dapat kita lakukan jika kita mau membuat jadwal yang baik:

1. Urutkan prioritas.
Jika semua kegiatan harus dilakukan pada hari ini tentu waktu tidak akan cukup, jadi buatlah pilihan. Apa yang memang penting dan apa yang tidak penting. Apa yang memang bersinggungan dengan arah hidup kita, itulah yang kita prioritaskan. Orang yang sudah berkeluarga harus memprioritaskan keluarganya, dan bukan pekerjaannya. Seorang pekerja wajib memprioritaskan pekerjaannya dan bukan hobinya, kecuali jika pekerjaannya adalah hobinya juga. Siapa mengerjakan tanahnya, akan kenyang dengan makanan, tetapi siapa mengejar barang yang sia-sia, tidak berakal budi (Ams. 12:11)

2. Ringankan pendirian kita.
Kadang kita sudah membuat jadwal tetapi ada saja hal-hal lain yang tiba-tiba menginterupsi untuk dilakukan. Jangan terlalu terkekang dengan jadwal tersebut, sebab tidak selalu semua kegiatan dalam daftar harus dikerjakan. Tidak ada yang memaksa kita untuk melakukannya, dan kita juga tidak akan kehilangan nyawa jika kita tidak melakukannya. Janganlah kita stress karena beban yang kita paksakan sendiri. Cobalah untuk tidak terlalu kuatir jika dalam jadwal ada hal-hal yang tidak sempat dikerjakan, sebab hati yang gembira adalah obat yang manjur, tetapi semangat yang patah mengeringkan tulang (Ams. 17:22)

3. Percaya pada Tuhan.
Saat keadaan mulai tidak terkendali, percayalah pada Tuhan seperti yang Daud lakukan dalam 1Sam. 30:6 “Dan Daud sangat terjepit, karena rakyat mengatakan hendak melempari dia dengan batu… Tetapi Daud menguatkan kepercayaannya kepada TUHAN, Allahnya.”

Stress adalah pertanda bahwa kita mulai mengandalkan kekuatan kita sendiri, atau melihat kepada permasalahan kita dari sudut pandang kita yang terbatas. Penyebab terbesar stress adalah karena kita terlalu serius sama diri sendiri dan kita tidak serius dengan Tuhan.

Source : no more darkness

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My Little Journey in May Part 1

Well it's my first entry blog with photo... hohoho

how's my life recently? i hope this pics can help me to remember how great is my God in my life.

I Love the sky. Every time i took the picture of sky, it will never get bored.

it perfected my decision to start over again to do jogging. keep it up Girl!!

Cappucinno @McCafe East Cost Park. Shine Tara!!

this ramen is shiok.... me and enni went to central to catch up at Santouka. will come back to this restaurant for sure.

My Cappucino... this cappucinno accompany me and chin to hang out. spent a really great time together with manager.

And this is Chin's mochacinno. ehmm yummi...

This scenery we catch up during cycling together with all Antioch's brother and sister. this pic can explain how beautiful the moon that night.

Actually, i still have a lot of pics to upload. but I still do not know much on how to upload and arrange it properly. So i guess its enough for now. :)

Matahari

ada 3 orang (england, american and indonesian). mrk berdiskusi kemana mereka akan pergi buat bulan madu.

E= England, A= American, I= Indonesian

E: "kalo gw merit ntar, gw mau bulan madu nya ke bulan."

(orang amerika ngak mau kalah)

A: "gw orang amerika, ke bulan itu biasa. kalo gw merit, gw mau ke planet saturnus buat bulan madu gw."

(karena ngak mau ketinggalan, orang indonesia jg menjawab)

I: "kalo gw merit, gw bakal ke matahari."

A: " yakin lu mau ke matahari? mana mungkin lu bs nyampe sana, kan itu panas bgt."

E: "iya, yakin lu bs nyampe sn?"

I: "pake otak dong.. gmn sih kalian. pergi nya pas malem dong.."

(E and A bengong)

“Obey Your Leaders . . . As Those Who Will Give an Account”

Prepared by Patrick J. Griffiths © - pastorpat@waukeshabible.org

November 4, 2007

Take note of what is being said in the following Scripture passages:

“Be on guard for yourselves and for all the flock, among which the Holy Spirit has made you overseers, to shepherd the church of God which He purchased with His own blood” (Acts 20:28).

11 “For no man can lay a foundation other than the one which is laid, which is Jesus Christ.

12 Now if any man builds on the foundation with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw,

13 each man's work will become evident; for the day will show it because it is to be revealed with fire, and the fire itself will test the quality of each man's work.

14 If any man's work which he has built on it remains,he will receive a reward.

15 If any man's work is burned up, he will suffer loss; but he himself will be saved, yet so as through fire” (1 Cor. 3:11-15).

12 “But we request of you, brethren, that you appreciate those who diligently labor among you, and have charge over you in the Lord and give you instruction,

13 and that you esteem them very highly in love because of their work. Live in peace with one another” (1 Thess. 5:12, 13).

“Remember those who led you, who spoke the word of God to you; and considering the result of their conduct, imitate their faith” (Heb. 13:7).

“Obey your leaders and submit to them, for they keep watch over your souls as those who will give an account. Let them do this with joy and not with grief, for this would be unprofitable for you”

(Heb. 13:17).

1 “Therefore, I exhort the elders among you, as your fellow elder and witness of the sufferings of Christ, and a partaker also of the glory that is to be revealed,

2 shepherd the flock of God among you, exercising oversight not under compulsion, but voluntarily, according to the will of God; and not for sordid gain, but with eagerness;

3 nor yet as lording it over those allotted to your charge, but proving to be examples to the flock.

4 And when the Chief Shepherd appears, you will receive the unfading crown of glory” (1 Pet. 5:1-4).

Those who minister as elders will give an account to the Lord for those entrusted to them. This is the direct teaching of 1 Corinthians 3 and Hebrews 13:17. Because elders will give an account to the Lord for those entrusted to them, the sheep are exhorted to obey the shepherd-leaders and to make the ministry entrusted and joy and not grievous. This is a heavy weight and grave responsibility. There are several significant features to the references cited.

First, elders are appointed by God as overseers (Acts 20:28; 1 Pet. 5:1-4).

The weight behind the office is through the appointment by the Holy Spirit. Those who are servant-leaders have an invested authority that is not intrinsic to the individual, but to the position of elder.

It is important to note this because many treat the office as something to be won by popularity or vocational success, but the office is to be occupied by those whom the Holy Spirit appoints.

This assumes such an appointment is discernable by those within the office and by the office as something to be won by popularity or vocational success, but the office is to be occupied by those whom the Holy Spirit appoints. This assumes such an appointment is discernible by those within the office and by the congregation.

Second, elders have a distinct role in the local church (Acts 20:28; 1 Cor. 3).

The ministry entrusted to elders is narrow, centered on the Word, prayer, and oversight. A Word-centered ministry finds its expression in the Bible. What place the Scripture has in any local church should be non-negotiable. This demands an appetite for the Word and the ability to teach the Word. A prayer-exercising ministry is one of supplication in behalf of the congregation. This demands that the elders are aware of the sheep and their needs. A ministry of oversight is one of guardianship. As overseers, the shepherds are to guard or protect the health of the sheep. This deals exclusively with soul-care. The shepherds must know the state

of the sheep. This requires engagement.

Third, the work of the shepherds will be evaluated as to its temporal or eternal nature (1 Cor. 3).

If the sheep perish, then the shepherd will not receive a reward. First Corinthians teaches that an eternal work is built on the message of Christ-crucified. Any other message will produce a congregation of flammable materials. It would be a grievous error to labor for a lifetime only to have produced a congregation of unbelief.

Fourth, the ministry of shepherding is to be marked by joy (Heb. 13:17).

When the church is healthy, then ministering to the sheep is a joy. When it is unhealthy, then shepherding is grievous.

Fifth, elders must be blameless in their attitudes and in their conduct (1 Pet. 5:1-4; 1 Tim. 3:1-7; Titus 1:5-16).

The office of elder must not be used for personal advancement or gain. The office of elder, that of the shepherd-leader, is marked by a selfless spirit, one in which the well-being of the sheep takes precedence over the comforts of the shepherd.

Sixth, elders are to be obeyed and submitted to by the sheep (Heb. 13:17).

In a culture that rebels against anything and anyone who exercises any authority, this becomes problematic. Sheep are not provided with options or alternatives. This is a strong reason for local church ministry and responsibilities. Some sheep almost refuse to align themselves to any local church, thereby circumventing any accountability to any local fellowship and its leadership. This is wrong, and it is sin. It is this attitude that has produced an anaemic church, where ideas of commitment and loyalty and responsibility are unheard of.

Making it Personal (What is the NEXT STEP? Let us get real practical)

1. As an elder, if you do not measure up, then step off.

2. As a congregant, join the church, do right, and make shepherding easy. Obey and submit to your elders as in the Lord

Thankful heart

I guess to say thank you is not enough to express how thankful i am with all the work that you had done in my life, my family.
For a lesson in life will cost you a lot but if you never give up, you will know in the end its worth to pay for the cost.

I might not go through the lesson, but when i heard the story of someone precious to me share how he went through his life, its really amaze me. God i believe that you called us not by coincidence but its really by your love and your mercy.
I never tot that your work had started long before i started to pray for him. But thabks for the endless courage that you poured out, that i really able to be in the picture.
Thanks to put this family to be in your heart.
Thanks for the compassion that you put in every heart in this family.
Thanks for your guidance and protection over this family.
Thanks to be our Lord and Saviour.

Revive this family.

Give thanks always with all you have. Appreciate what you have, people surround you.

Special thanks:
Thanks for being a great father for me and sis.
Thanks for being a great husband for mom
Thanks for being a protector and comforter over this family
You are the best.
Happy bday papa! Love you!

New world

My vice precident once told me about new world.

In that time we were about to have a meeting to customer to introduce them with a new concept that my company adopt. A lot of people didnt agree with this concept. People talked from the back. People hard to accept change. New concept means new thing to do. We need to work harder in order to introduce it and to make the people to be familirise themselves with the new things. Well, it's really hard for him as a leader to convince the people that he is leading them to a new world.

He shared with me how moses lead the israelite to the promise land. How was the reaction of the people. They always think about how good their life in the past. They cant see that a new world, God give it to them.
So he challenged me, there will be a new world, who will enter it? Those people that have faith towards it. Dont be like the israelite where they cant enter the new world because they were grumble and gone againts it.
And he told me be a joshua generation who take courage toward changes.

Well, I really amaze by what he shared to me. It is not only imparting my career life but my entire life to perceive changes.

A new world that God have prepared. Do i want to enter it?

Desperate Housewife

I love to watch Desperate Housewife. From all the actresses, I think i can identify myself with Lynette. She like to control her family, and sometime she cant let her husband to lead her. Her past follow her till she married and have kids. She have fear that if she dont control it, her family will be ruin or she dont want her husband to take a silly decision.

Well, i like to take control. I have fear that if i dont take control, i will regret Yup, I know that i have to conquer this fear. Because i believe that God is the one take control over my life.

in the Season 6 episode 24, i can learn a lot of think from different person in this series.

1. Bree

Bree is a great Mom. As what a mother will do their kids, that she do to her kids. She protects andrew from taking responsibility of killed Carlos's Mom. through an accident few years back, when andrew still young, he drove a car and hit Carlos's mom.

Orson, her husband doesnt agree with Bree not to let andrew to take responsible when now he is adult. and he mentioned to Bree that she is compromising with her believe and become hypocrite. Bree believes that in life you have to do right things and she is a religious woman. Bree tried to excuse that she have no other choice but protect andrew. but Orson made a good statement where he said that she have a choice whether want to let andrew to learn to take responsibility. And Orson choose to break up with Bree because she is no the Bree that he knows.

In the end of the episode, Bree take courage and choose to stand again with her believe. She chose to talk to Gaby (Carlos's wife) about the accident.

2. Eddie and Lynette

Eddie is from a broken family. He thirst of motherly love. He felt that her mother ignored him and do not want him. and many times that he is trapped with the kindness of a woman. He becomes violence. Lynette who has the same past as him that she came from a family where the mother also dunk everyday, understand Eddie's feeling.

Lynette welcome Eddie into her house and be a part in her family. She tries to help Eddie to gain back his confident.

Eddie had killed so many woman in Fairview. and in the end Lynette find out that Eddie killed his mom. Eddie cant let Lynette tell police about what his criminal. in the climax, Lynette water broke. and Eddie helps her to give birth. Eddie plan to run away after helping Lynette. But Lynette challenges him to take responsibility over what he did. And Lynette told Eddie that he is her son also and it will make her proud of him .

Acceptance, Love, Approval, that's all what Eddie needs. So he surrender himself and admit to police.

3. Gaby

Gaby knows Angie not long ago. And even she had some clashes with Angie. Gaby's life is full of secret because she doesnt want to lose to anyone. Somehow, she found that Angie's life is full of secret also. that makes the two of them become friend. After Angie confess her secret to Gaby, Gaby promised her that she will help her all the way for whatever it may take.

So when Patrick found Angie house and try to kill her and Danny, Gaby really go all the way to help Angie. She even risk her life.

So, what are those things that i can learn from this 3 incident?

1. Compromising and Responsibility

because we fell that we have a good reason, our tendency is to compromise with what we believe or even to compromise with what God tough us to do. and where in the end we lose our identity. we take over His role. and in the end Andrew cant grow up in taking his responsibility over his life. and its spoiled him.

2. Life is full of choice

Everyday we need to decide which choice that we choose. what to eat, where to go, with who you want to go, what time you want to sleep, and so on.

So what is your choice today? is it the right things to do?

3. Do right thing

as what happen to Bree and Eddie, they made mistake before in chose to do wrong things. But you can to choose to do right things right now. Dont do wrong things to cover wrong things.

Anythings that you need to do right now in order to turn from your wrong choice?

Someone will rebuke you in order to make you realize that you have to change.

4. Friendship

I'm impressed by what Gaby did to Angie. Where she really treasure Angie as her friend. Well sacrifices are needed in friendship. Love without action is death. So if you want to have a strong friendship, you have to base it on love and do action on it.

In this story, its really reflect our daily life. how we perceive your neighbors or how your life only base on people opinion. I believe when you really take note on the people's character in this story, you can identify yourself. Which role can you identify yourself?

Past, present, Future

Anyone never question or think about their future?
I do question a lot about my future. Who am i in the next 5 years? What am i going to do? How about my parents?
Well, i do scared of what will happen in the future. But dont we have faith? Fear cover up my faith.
Fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of life.
Well we do care about our future and often our past decide our future.

As we understand that past is a time that we had and it had past. So it means today determine our future. Dont let something that you cant change to determine ur futute. We can change ur life when we live today and make a right decision. When we decided to ask God to lead us everyday in our decision. We will have a great past that can lead us to a great future. So choose to do right today.

Judmental

well, everyone dont like to be judged. But sometime we didnt realize that we are being judgmental to others.

for me?? i dont like to be judgmental by others. and the silly things sometime i have a negative thought when people try to ask me with a investigation or nagging tones. i felt judgmental.

And though sometime i felt some people will take advantage on my feeling. Yup this thinking is my own thinking. and i need to change the way that i perceived things.

“Tell me and I'll forget; show me and I may remember; involve me and I'll understand.”

I have to continue to learn because when i stop to learn i make myself not functioning.

A new beginning

A new beginning is start when we decided to let go the past and move on from there.

i tried to recap back what had happen to me in this past almost 3 years in singapore. i read through my blog posting one by one, and even i read through my journal of 2010. (because i missed my blog for more than 1 year =p)

Last year 2010, actually a year where there were a lot of stories to tell but im not so sure why i decided not to write my blog. i think im too lazy to recap my daily life or even a weekly life. =p

So this year i will try my best to write all the journey that i encountered. i hope i can express my feeling and my thought freely here.

Btw, last week and even today i had learn about how being a leader in the workplace.

last week, my boss approached me to inform that they want to transfer me to be a perm staff in YEA. currently i am under PEI (Sub con of yokogawa). it shocked me because i know that they should take some other people to be perm. and i never mention to them that i want this. but anyway i believe that when God's people do their best God will control the outcome. He is Jehovah Jireh. so im not so sure on what to do next. with a good intention because i dont want my colleague to feel betray i told her that boss approached me and told me about conversion part. then i told her not to tell the other colleague because i think its better for him to hear directly from boss. but end up next day, i just settle down, turn on my pc, tried to read the email, then my colleague (him) approached me and talked in sarcastic way asked about my conversion. it really surprised me. because he know from my other colleague (her). im a bit disappointed with her action. and even when i asked her why she told him, she refused to answer me. so i just keep quite and just accept that she cant be trusted.

But its not the end, after they knew it they really take me as their senior or boss. my colleague will ask me what to do step by step and expect me to spoon feed her. actually deep inside my heart i want to ask her, isnt it you are my senior? shouldnt i'm the one who ask you to guide me? its quite irritated me and i feel so uneasy. im struggling to cope with the job scope that they gave to me, and i dont think i cant take more responsibility. i had tried to guide her step by step but in the end she still blame me with the problem that they faced at site. oh gosh... i really dont know what to do.

But from this incident, i can learn how to lead myself and be responsible on what the things that i have been trusted.

The other thing that i learned, take your own responsibility. even for your life in the future. where do you want to go. and not only that take your own responsibility to choose between life and death. Learn to make decision even though your decision will not be the best, at least you are learning on making decision rather than you are doing nothing.

The Life

Here you go, my first entry for 2011 and it is a first entry after i break for a long time to write this blog.

When i think back of my journey 2010, i can really testify how God had done wonderful job in my life. its really by His grace that I'm as what I am today. I believe a lot of my friends can be the testifier of how messy was my life in 2o1o. I take 'Give up' word so easily. many time i want to put this white flag to say "It's enough" but because His grace is sufficient, it really help me and hold me to cling on to Him.

Wow i think i had learn about grace in my life. But i believe God will continue to give sufficient grace for me. means i will go through another situation that require greater grace...

'hufh....' Need to build the firm foundation over my life so that even the wind blow hard, and tsunami some into my life, i will still stand firm..

Yup, what is my foundation right now? sand or brick? how is the house when the wind blow?? Good question to ponder and to keep remind me to think back when i face challenges.

So 2011, i believe that this year will be a year where i can reap the harvest of what i sow last year. the promises of God will be fulfill. and time to prepare my self to receive the promises.