Thankful heart

I guess to say thank you is not enough to express how thankful i am with all the work that you had done in my life, my family.
For a lesson in life will cost you a lot but if you never give up, you will know in the end its worth to pay for the cost.

I might not go through the lesson, but when i heard the story of someone precious to me share how he went through his life, its really amaze me. God i believe that you called us not by coincidence but its really by your love and your mercy.
I never tot that your work had started long before i started to pray for him. But thabks for the endless courage that you poured out, that i really able to be in the picture.
Thanks to put this family to be in your heart.
Thanks for the compassion that you put in every heart in this family.
Thanks for your guidance and protection over this family.
Thanks to be our Lord and Saviour.

Revive this family.

Give thanks always with all you have. Appreciate what you have, people surround you.

Special thanks:
Thanks for being a great father for me and sis.
Thanks for being a great husband for mom
Thanks for being a protector and comforter over this family
You are the best.
Happy bday papa! Love you!

New world

My vice precident once told me about new world.

In that time we were about to have a meeting to customer to introduce them with a new concept that my company adopt. A lot of people didnt agree with this concept. People talked from the back. People hard to accept change. New concept means new thing to do. We need to work harder in order to introduce it and to make the people to be familirise themselves with the new things. Well, it's really hard for him as a leader to convince the people that he is leading them to a new world.

He shared with me how moses lead the israelite to the promise land. How was the reaction of the people. They always think about how good their life in the past. They cant see that a new world, God give it to them.
So he challenged me, there will be a new world, who will enter it? Those people that have faith towards it. Dont be like the israelite where they cant enter the new world because they were grumble and gone againts it.
And he told me be a joshua generation who take courage toward changes.

Well, I really amaze by what he shared to me. It is not only imparting my career life but my entire life to perceive changes.

A new world that God have prepared. Do i want to enter it?

Desperate Housewife

I love to watch Desperate Housewife. From all the actresses, I think i can identify myself with Lynette. She like to control her family, and sometime she cant let her husband to lead her. Her past follow her till she married and have kids. She have fear that if she dont control it, her family will be ruin or she dont want her husband to take a silly decision.

Well, i like to take control. I have fear that if i dont take control, i will regret Yup, I know that i have to conquer this fear. Because i believe that God is the one take control over my life.

in the Season 6 episode 24, i can learn a lot of think from different person in this series.

1. Bree

Bree is a great Mom. As what a mother will do their kids, that she do to her kids. She protects andrew from taking responsibility of killed Carlos's Mom. through an accident few years back, when andrew still young, he drove a car and hit Carlos's mom.

Orson, her husband doesnt agree with Bree not to let andrew to take responsible when now he is adult. and he mentioned to Bree that she is compromising with her believe and become hypocrite. Bree believes that in life you have to do right things and she is a religious woman. Bree tried to excuse that she have no other choice but protect andrew. but Orson made a good statement where he said that she have a choice whether want to let andrew to learn to take responsibility. And Orson choose to break up with Bree because she is no the Bree that he knows.

In the end of the episode, Bree take courage and choose to stand again with her believe. She chose to talk to Gaby (Carlos's wife) about the accident.

2. Eddie and Lynette

Eddie is from a broken family. He thirst of motherly love. He felt that her mother ignored him and do not want him. and many times that he is trapped with the kindness of a woman. He becomes violence. Lynette who has the same past as him that she came from a family where the mother also dunk everyday, understand Eddie's feeling.

Lynette welcome Eddie into her house and be a part in her family. She tries to help Eddie to gain back his confident.

Eddie had killed so many woman in Fairview. and in the end Lynette find out that Eddie killed his mom. Eddie cant let Lynette tell police about what his criminal. in the climax, Lynette water broke. and Eddie helps her to give birth. Eddie plan to run away after helping Lynette. But Lynette challenges him to take responsibility over what he did. And Lynette told Eddie that he is her son also and it will make her proud of him .

Acceptance, Love, Approval, that's all what Eddie needs. So he surrender himself and admit to police.

3. Gaby

Gaby knows Angie not long ago. And even she had some clashes with Angie. Gaby's life is full of secret because she doesnt want to lose to anyone. Somehow, she found that Angie's life is full of secret also. that makes the two of them become friend. After Angie confess her secret to Gaby, Gaby promised her that she will help her all the way for whatever it may take.

So when Patrick found Angie house and try to kill her and Danny, Gaby really go all the way to help Angie. She even risk her life.

So, what are those things that i can learn from this 3 incident?

1. Compromising and Responsibility

because we fell that we have a good reason, our tendency is to compromise with what we believe or even to compromise with what God tough us to do. and where in the end we lose our identity. we take over His role. and in the end Andrew cant grow up in taking his responsibility over his life. and its spoiled him.

2. Life is full of choice

Everyday we need to decide which choice that we choose. what to eat, where to go, with who you want to go, what time you want to sleep, and so on.

So what is your choice today? is it the right things to do?

3. Do right thing

as what happen to Bree and Eddie, they made mistake before in chose to do wrong things. But you can to choose to do right things right now. Dont do wrong things to cover wrong things.

Anythings that you need to do right now in order to turn from your wrong choice?

Someone will rebuke you in order to make you realize that you have to change.

4. Friendship

I'm impressed by what Gaby did to Angie. Where she really treasure Angie as her friend. Well sacrifices are needed in friendship. Love without action is death. So if you want to have a strong friendship, you have to base it on love and do action on it.

In this story, its really reflect our daily life. how we perceive your neighbors or how your life only base on people opinion. I believe when you really take note on the people's character in this story, you can identify yourself. Which role can you identify yourself?

Past, present, Future

Anyone never question or think about their future?
I do question a lot about my future. Who am i in the next 5 years? What am i going to do? How about my parents?
Well, i do scared of what will happen in the future. But dont we have faith? Fear cover up my faith.
Fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of life.
Well we do care about our future and often our past decide our future.

As we understand that past is a time that we had and it had past. So it means today determine our future. Dont let something that you cant change to determine ur futute. We can change ur life when we live today and make a right decision. When we decided to ask God to lead us everyday in our decision. We will have a great past that can lead us to a great future. So choose to do right today.

Judmental

well, everyone dont like to be judged. But sometime we didnt realize that we are being judgmental to others.

for me?? i dont like to be judgmental by others. and the silly things sometime i have a negative thought when people try to ask me with a investigation or nagging tones. i felt judgmental.

And though sometime i felt some people will take advantage on my feeling. Yup this thinking is my own thinking. and i need to change the way that i perceived things.

“Tell me and I'll forget; show me and I may remember; involve me and I'll understand.”

I have to continue to learn because when i stop to learn i make myself not functioning.

A new beginning

A new beginning is start when we decided to let go the past and move on from there.

i tried to recap back what had happen to me in this past almost 3 years in singapore. i read through my blog posting one by one, and even i read through my journal of 2010. (because i missed my blog for more than 1 year =p)

Last year 2010, actually a year where there were a lot of stories to tell but im not so sure why i decided not to write my blog. i think im too lazy to recap my daily life or even a weekly life. =p

So this year i will try my best to write all the journey that i encountered. i hope i can express my feeling and my thought freely here.

Btw, last week and even today i had learn about how being a leader in the workplace.

last week, my boss approached me to inform that they want to transfer me to be a perm staff in YEA. currently i am under PEI (Sub con of yokogawa). it shocked me because i know that they should take some other people to be perm. and i never mention to them that i want this. but anyway i believe that when God's people do their best God will control the outcome. He is Jehovah Jireh. so im not so sure on what to do next. with a good intention because i dont want my colleague to feel betray i told her that boss approached me and told me about conversion part. then i told her not to tell the other colleague because i think its better for him to hear directly from boss. but end up next day, i just settle down, turn on my pc, tried to read the email, then my colleague (him) approached me and talked in sarcastic way asked about my conversion. it really surprised me. because he know from my other colleague (her). im a bit disappointed with her action. and even when i asked her why she told him, she refused to answer me. so i just keep quite and just accept that she cant be trusted.

But its not the end, after they knew it they really take me as their senior or boss. my colleague will ask me what to do step by step and expect me to spoon feed her. actually deep inside my heart i want to ask her, isnt it you are my senior? shouldnt i'm the one who ask you to guide me? its quite irritated me and i feel so uneasy. im struggling to cope with the job scope that they gave to me, and i dont think i cant take more responsibility. i had tried to guide her step by step but in the end she still blame me with the problem that they faced at site. oh gosh... i really dont know what to do.

But from this incident, i can learn how to lead myself and be responsible on what the things that i have been trusted.

The other thing that i learned, take your own responsibility. even for your life in the future. where do you want to go. and not only that take your own responsibility to choose between life and death. Learn to make decision even though your decision will not be the best, at least you are learning on making decision rather than you are doing nothing.

The Life

Here you go, my first entry for 2011 and it is a first entry after i break for a long time to write this blog.

When i think back of my journey 2010, i can really testify how God had done wonderful job in my life. its really by His grace that I'm as what I am today. I believe a lot of my friends can be the testifier of how messy was my life in 2o1o. I take 'Give up' word so easily. many time i want to put this white flag to say "It's enough" but because His grace is sufficient, it really help me and hold me to cling on to Him.

Wow i think i had learn about grace in my life. But i believe God will continue to give sufficient grace for me. means i will go through another situation that require greater grace...

'hufh....' Need to build the firm foundation over my life so that even the wind blow hard, and tsunami some into my life, i will still stand firm..

Yup, what is my foundation right now? sand or brick? how is the house when the wind blow?? Good question to ponder and to keep remind me to think back when i face challenges.

So 2011, i believe that this year will be a year where i can reap the harvest of what i sow last year. the promises of God will be fulfill. and time to prepare my self to receive the promises.